Is it too early to consider me a writer?
It's been about 3 weeks since my last post. Not because I was resistant to writing, but I have had a terrible case of Writer's Block. It was scary, new blog, no new content.
I was reading a book called "Buck: a memoir" by the author, MK Asante. In chapter 36, he talked about how his teacher instructed him to just write. It did not matter what the subject matter was, just release thoughts onto paper. He struggled with this. Write about what? He couldn't think. Until he realized, he didn't need to think much, he needed to just write. Once he began to write, he found that it was something that he wanted to consistently do.
How can you write about something when you have no ideas? You just do it. That's what MK Asante did, and I've followed suit.
Hands on this keyboard, loose, with rhythm in my wrist. I'm listening to the new Logic album. I feel like I can write my future, spell out my dreams, and destiny in keystrokes.
Staring at this blank web page, and I see the light's reflection. Would be a lie if I said this didn't feel familiar, but I feel purpose in this writing. I can't identify this purpose, but it is present. At 22 years of age, months after college graduation, it's there. My mind is stuck. I feel happy that I am writing this, but I cannot find many words to describe.
I'll get to the point.
I've got writer's block, but still a lot to say. Does that make sense?
The thought of creating AmbitionWasteland (the name is fairly new), harvested in my brain for months - probably closer to a year before I made any moves. Actually, I wrote "Woes of a Passive Child" about three months ago. I sat with it and thought that the words would never be read by anyone but me. I wanted everyone to read it, but... nerves! I've let my nerves get the best of me, pretty much my whole life.
I went into this whole thing thinking that not one person would be interested in reading what I have to say, and I have been proven wrong to some extent. The day I posted for the first time, I sent it to Facebook, and logged off. I had no plans to log back in, just in case someone commented. I did not want to see, at least I thought I didn't. I kept logging in, and check my notifications (there weren't many), but I needed to know.
All the positive feedback has been awesome, and it motivates me to keep going.
Comments are always welcome!
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